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| You either have too much to say, or nothing at all. What you say may be of great significance, or unorganized rambling. Honestly, I don't know what this blog is going to be like, but it's long overdue!
First of all, I've changed I'm sure I know, but I still care about everyone a lot and have odd ways of showing it, including not showing it at all. Since I've been in the nursing program, most days have to be all about me passing the program (including the times I spend with patients), and many of those days I wish I didn't have to keep up with my own life at all or have standards to meet and just role with the times with others. My social life has shrunken by a lot as far as where I go, what I do, and who I see. I can only strive for contentment in this area as definitely haven't been dancing in forever. That's not to say that it sucks being with my boyfriend, but time with others has definitely been limited. How my friends still know me... how people are still talking to me... I have no idea, but as I said on Christmas Day, "Thanks the blessings, love, and friendship you've given to me. I couldn't be more grateful for coming across you in my life :]" I'm reminded once again about people coming into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. I'm challenged once again by this very statement, and am still learning more about all the relationships in my life.
Anyways, here's a bit of my days to the best of my ability at 2AM after a FLOCK party...
I wrapped up this Fall 09 semester with a 3.61GPA  I am proud, but not satisfied because I know how I could have gotten a higher GPA simply during finals week alone. I mean... it's just one week of exams. Why not just kill yourself for one week? Eh heh, I ask myself that question all the time and practically always choose NOT to kill myself. I am proud because this past semester was very different from the last. In addition to classes, I had a boyfriend, piano lessons and musicianship class, I was on Senate- attending Senate meetings and working on things with my School of Nursing Representative partner, and I worked at Loyola Village Residence Hall. I was... to say the least, happy with this way of life. Who knows what next semester will bring me with NURSING RESEARCH  My professor is the author of so much work that I can only ANTICIPATE what a semester it's going to be with her...
I was so antsy to go home being done with finals on Wednesday, BUT I had to stay for Anh Long's graduation. And man, I was so happy for him graduating, but at the same time I was feeling so bitter and irritated with the fact that I still had to wait to go home Friday night despite being done with finals on Wednesday. ANYWAYS, I participated in the commencement mass, and that was my FIRST time cantoring in ST. IGNATIUS CHURCH!  My voice was so rusty, and I cantored "Here I Am Lord" with Matthew (?) who is one of Paul Mc William's possy members, our USF UM music director. It was really nice to get to sing with this group of people. Not many people were in the choir, but 2 people were with Paul, 2 people were USF Staff (INCLUDING DR. CHRISTINA SANCHEZ! WTF?! She's some sort of a Dean! Eh I can't remember her role right now), some people from the St. Ignatius parish, and 1 graduating senior. We were a nice bunch we were. We sang Night of Silence/Silent Night, and it sounded oh so beautiful in the church. I remember I thought to myself... this is such an exciting privilege. I hope to be able to help with as many commencement masses as possible!  The best thing about this mass was this was the first and last mass Anh Long EVER attended while at USF! I'm really glad he came... with his mama and aunty too!
So after mass I was received by Anh Long's Di Nhi with a hug ( ) and then by his energetic talkative mom. It was about time really. I was nervous and anxious about meeting his mom right when I knew she was coming weeks ahead! Heh, she was able to be calm enough to ask me my name, what I'm studying, and bits about my family. So that's nice. I tried being out there to get along with the family as much as possible despite the fact that I had such a horrible sleep the night before. Seriously, thank god for them being so social. I know where my baby gets that from  I really only got to see his mom for that one day. We went to dinner afterwards in China Town, and I LIKED IT! Fricken... Indonesian, Thai, and... one other ethnic group of food. In addition to that, his Di Nhi kept pouring me glasses of wine, and I swear we toasted to Anh Long graduating like 5 times, then to Christmas, New Years, Tet, AND Valentine's Day!! Haha... I hope I don't have to drink with that lady many more times in the future XP She'd have me recite all the holidays in the year one day I bet.
THEN CAME CHRISTMAS!!!
1) White Elephant party with NorCal uVSA in my Elk Grove house. I was really just acquainted with everyone. I only went to mainly chill with Cong and Edison and force myself into the Christmas spirit coming out of finals and stuff. I won a traveling pillow, which I'll say I'm content with bc it really is quite comfy and I can fall asleep so quickly with it in a car! Afterwards our team lost in the Catch Phrase game, and had to stand outside on the main street and carol Jingle Bells! Honestly, I LOVED IT! Our bunch was so spirited that we were willing to finish the song out on the curb XP XD That's the Christmas Spirit!
2) FLOCK Christmas Caroling! Often I'm flustered with having to organize things, but I caroling with FLOCK was a lot of fun because everyone was open to singing. In fact, we added things here and there, sang in parts, and added Child of The Poor to What Child is This. When we got to Homewood Center, the seniors received us so well. I remembered some of them who followed us through the halls while we sang our carols, and some could sing along too. I appreciated everyone who dared to step into a senior's room, surround their bedside, grip their hand, and wish them warm Christmas wishes. That's FLOCK for ya. We really didn't ask for anything in return, but conveniently we went to TK Noodle afterwards anyways, AND I DIDN'T DIE! 
3) Christmas YAM Time! Alright, so ever since I came home to San Jose, I felt the house was so cold, and I just wanted to rest all the time that I was constantly sleeping on the couch under three blankets even if I had somewhere to go, and even if I was hungry. Meh, as you can imagine, 3 days later I felt pretty damn weak getting up from the couch. I was feeling dizzy and light headed and so weak down to the bones. I made it to San Francisco to be with Anh Long ~2PM. Our plans were to go to Stonestown Galleria and shop for our families, head over to West Portal, Union Square for ice skating, dinner, and spend the rest of the night together. THAT turned into us shopping slowly and sleepily at Stonestown Galleria, skipping West Portal, and me being SsOoOoo sleepy running up a fever while waiting for the M train to go to Union Square. Meh, what a tough day like nothing I had hoped for. We were able to ice skate for 45 minutes, but with Anh Long it was fun and I still felt I got 1.5 hrs worth. Besides, we were starving and headed over to Johnny Rocket's at Fisherman's Wharf. Typically, the restaurant closes at 8PM, but I didn't know and called the restaurant from Union Square at 7:35PM and asked if they'd have seating for us! Thanks to us, however, they had an addition 6 ish parties come in! Yay! More tip for our server lady! Anh Long got nice and full off of his food, but I was so weak that I hardly ate HALF of ANY of my entree or dessert. Come night time, I just wanted to die (pass out), and I didn't exactly that I believe.
We opened our gifts Christmas Eve morning together because I didn't drive home since I was feeling so sick and tired. I felt much better in the morning, ESPECIALLY WHEN I SAW THAT I GOT WICKED TICKETS FOR JAN 5!!!  WHAT A GREAT SANTA! What a great boyfriend What an exciting moment it was for me to see that my boyfriend wasn't such a bad shopper and that he COULD be thoughtful with gifts
Alright, I'm continueing this later. This is too dheng long already
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| And now it's time to get back on that studying track for finals! *phew* constantly thinking about this stuff isn't going to be fun at all.
Thanksgiving Break was swell for me. Many apologies to EVERYONE I didn't hang out with because I was sick (and I get pretty darn anti-social when I'm sick). I mean, I did hang out with the bf on my birthday, but then I got him sick too! So, that was a pretty good sign that I shouldn't hang out with people. Heh. Family's Thanksgiving dinner was... interesting. It made me realize how out of the loop I am with so many things, and how people are so bad at filling me in. Skipped the Black Friday shopping, but I made $40 for showing up as a back up at Oakridge mall :] Spent my days in bed, but boy o boy did I catch up with the TV I don't own up here. I watched Little Rascals, Hercules, Sleepless in Seattle, Desperate Housewives (meh), Greys Anatomy (double meh), Rush Hour 3, and many other TV shows! Whoo! The only one I was missing was Miss Congeniality! O well.
As soon as finals ends I'm going to have to do some quick Christmas prepping with the money I don't have x] That means I'm going to try to spread my holiday cheer some other way! Bf will be graduating... and then I won't see him at school anymore :( so I don't know when and where our YAM time will be, but I def. hope he'll find a job before I go back to school. The same day he's graduating is TKBL too, which means I'm not participating or supporting that in any way at all. Sorry FLOCK! The thing to worry about more now is having to meet Long's mom when she comes for his graduation >,< and gettin myself back in the groove with SOOOOO many people I haven't talked to!!
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| Birthday wish: a paid hair cut
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| Happy Thanksgiving!
Be thankful. Give someone(s) a hug.
FLOCK's Thanksgiving dinner was so nice! :] I hope we get more oldies and newbies to come next year though. That always adds to the love, but as Chau would say, it was "intimate." ^.^
Anyways, one vent: I appreciate everyone's sympathy for the rigorous curriculum the nursing program puts us through, but now that I'm in it, I'd tell all my classmates and the rest of the Nursing students to humble themselves more about this. I think everyone has their challenges in their majors, and I think everyone will at some point have to put out the same amount of sweat and critical thinking as Nursing students if not during their Undergrad. program specific to their career (which is rare and specific only to Nursing and engineering?) then during grad. school or during their work experience. With that said, I don't think we have any more of a right to seem like we're suffering.
Are you suffering? I hope you're not. It's too early in the nursing program to be suffering, and that's not practicing self-care at all.
Birthday on Wednesday, but to roll with the times of the economy, I'm not celebrating it, but hey, I have a boyfriend who tried to find me a cake fulfilling my diet criteria. And I only said that because many of my female friends seem to think that just by having a boyfriend, you're life feels 2x more complete than when you were single. HA! I will say though, that he is a gift to me in and of itself.
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| What am I doing? I'm supposed to be studying n doing my load of assignments... FACK
A laugh about racism: Long and I went to Olive Garden for our 4 monthes. I accused Long of being racist for thinking our servers name was Hank (it's kinda red-neck ya know?) when I'm sure he said Nate. (Yes, it was Nate ). THEN towards the end of our dinner, NATE offered to bag our breadsticks to take home and said "I'm sure you guys probably have some brothers and sisters to feed at home." Boy did I accuse the wrong person of being racist. AND FOR THE RECORD, their breadsticks were so delicious
Looking for a seasonal job for the holidays. Gotta put the interview game face on- energetic, enthusiastic, professional and not childish.
Schedule for the week:
Tues: 12am-4m work/ 7:30-10:15am quiz and class/ 1:30-3:15pm class/ 3:30-5:00pm meet with Dean of Nursing w/ Sarah/ 5:00pm counselor's appt/ 6:00-7:00pm Senate/ 7:00-10pm Fall Music Student Showcase (mandatory)/ 10pm-12am submit nursing care plan
Wed: 8:00-10:00am work for Belinda/ 12:00-2:00pm work/ 3:00pm interview at Ann Taylor at Valley Fair/ 5:00pm PR Committee Meeting/ 6:00-8:00pm work
Thurs: 7:30-10:15am submit Health Hx paper and class/ 1:30-3:00pm class/ 3:30-6:15pm submit Digoxin module and quiz and class/ 7:00pm piano
Fri: 6:00-8:00am work
Sat: 4:00-10:00am work/ 11:30am-10:00pm FLOCK Thanksgiving prep and dinner
Sun: 4:00am-8:00am work/ 4:00-6:00pm piano group class (mandatory)
Those are just the times were I must be present somewhere, this is what I need to have time for:
- Study for N231 quiz
- Complete class objectives and care plan for N251
- Health Hx Paper
- Digoxin Module
- Study for Pharm quiz
- Pay Target & Chase bills (just a reminder)
- Online module for N231
- Practice piano
Someone hug me please. 0.0'
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